my mind

Hey! Ya what did I tell you? I forgot about this thing for about two months now! Well, I just wanted to come on here and write today. I wish I could tell my friends, but they just don’t get it whenever I tell them stuff like this, and I wish they would because I always listen to them but whenever I talk they just don’t listen. But that’s not why I came on today. Okay, there’s this guy, I’ve liked him since February and all my friends and his friends tried to get him to like me. On March 21, they were successful! I talked to him after school, but I totally made a fool of myself ‘cuz I cannot talk to guys at all because I get nervous and turn very red and stuff. (Keep in mind that he’s a year older than me and I’ve never liked older guys, and I’ve never talked to him in my life before now) So we talked for a couple minutes then he had to get his little brother. Then the next week we had spring break, so I didn’t get to see him for a week. When we got back to school the next Monday, he was kind of ignoring me, I think it was because of something I said. Well, the next day (Tuesday) was April Fool’s. My friends played the worst joke that anyone has ever done to me on April Fool’s. They kept wispering to each other (my biggest pet peeve is when people wisper around me and everyone in the group knows, but me) and then one of my friends “secretly” told me what happened. Supposedly one of C.M.’s (C.M. is the guy I like) friends came up and told my best friend that C.M. didn’t like me anymore, so I was sad of course and acted like I didn’t care, then all day long they were wispering and acted like they were mad at me ,’cuz they were leaving me out and stuff. At the end of the day, all of my friends got in a big circle around me and they all screamed, APRIL FOOL’s! I felt like crying, I couldn’t believe they could be such jerks! (I figuerd out the middle of the day this is what the would do but they would deny it) I guess they could read my face because one of them said “ C_____ still likes you don’t worry.” I forgave them but still was upset. The next day, they completely turned on me. They all were ignoring me and if I asked them something they would just shrug and say “I don’t know” or something, so then I was forced to go to my friend(Ce) (my ex-best friend’s ex-best friend) who got kicked out of the group(who the ”leader” of the group, and also my best friend (A), hated because she ”stole” her ”boyfriend”) (who didn’t even like her) That probably is what made every thing get so bad because A’s mom hates Ce for doing this so she wouldn’t let A hang around me. Well, It just so happens that Ce and her two close friends ( J and L) are really good friend with CM’s friends, so Ce would ask her boyfriend (T)  if CM still liked me. CM couldn’t make up his mind. One day he would like me then he wouldn’t (this would go on for days!) One day I had a friend put a note in his locker with my email on it. CM’s friend founf it in the hallway a couple days later and gave it to CM. A couple days ago it was really cold and I didn’t bring a jacket so my friends asked CM for his jacket for me to wear. I put a note in the pocket and gave it back to him. He still hasn’t worn the jacket since and that was two weeks ago! I don’t know what happened to the note either. Well, that pretty much sums it all up I guess.